one wish???

She made you happy inspired you so much and right now i feel like such a waste of space you say i love you your so glad you met me but like wtf u shouldnt be glad i cant do anything for you all i can do is try to be here when you need me but for some reason i feel like she is so much better than me i wish she didnt move away sometimes even though if she was still here and i could never have you atleast you wouldn't be sad all the time when your not around me )': it makes me wanna cry i cant help you i can't keep you happy i feel like all of this is a dream still im with the guy of my dreams the guy ive always thought of as my prince the one i've always wanted to marry the one i thought never existed i mean everything about you fits what i want it's just i don't deserve you )': i've done nothing to deserve you you drive to see me and do all this stuff to see me and all i can do is occasionally get my mom to drop me off to see you for a few hours but it's like i feel like all i ever do is make u upset or piss you off or something and then after i do that all i want to do is crawl in a hole and die a miserable gory death )': did you know that 99.9% of the time you are all i think about i'm constantly worrying about you when u don't text me back i'm wondering if your crying right now being depressed or when i'm with you and you look over at me with a certain look im wondering if somethings wrong and if i'm the cause of it why can't i just keep you happy why can't i take away your pain why can't i be a girl that inspires you you know sometimes i wonder if your thinking about me or if your thinking of her cause right now i'm completely and utterly confused you say you love me and then you sometimes turn around and talk about her )': do you seriously not realizes that just like you not wanting me to talk about my guy friends i don't like you talking about your EX like seriously can you please stop hurting me with just her name or the things she likes or music she introduced you to :l i just DON'T CARE i'll sit and listen but deep inside i really don't care and wish u would just FORGET ABOUT HER COMPLETELY and act like she never existed that's my wish is for you to forget about her......or atleast stop talking about her to me )': i can't deal with it anymore its breaking me down..........thank you